Missing my kids today...

Some days are harder than others. Some days I only think about the Philippines when someone mentions it or asks me about it. Others, it's all I can think about. I have pictures of my kids all over my dorm room (literally), which usually doesn't get to me unless I spend time in my room...which I haven't been doing much of recently. But today, for some reason, my kids have been all I could think about.

I had a dream the other night about Alexandra. Alexandra was "my kid" in the Philippines, and I got so attached to her over the course of the 3 weeks. (If you go to the blog I kept while I was there, you can read all about her.) I don't remember much about my dream, but what I do remember was seeing her again. And she ran up to me (because she remembered me) and gave me a HUGE hug and a kiss, just like she always did. It felt so real, and when I woke up, it was hard for me to figure out whether or not it was a dream. When I did wake up though, I remember feeling SO thankful that God gave me a dream like that. I know I didn't really hug her in real life, but it was almost like God knew how much I missed her, and he was giving me a glimpse of that joy again. It's so hard to be away from them sometimes, and it's even harder to think about the fact that I'll never see them again. I'll never be able to check up on them or hear how they're doing. I'll never be able to send them cards or letters or pictures, and I'll never be able to talk to them on facebook or on the phone. The only thing that I can hope and pray for is that someday, I'll see them again in heaven. It sucks, and sometimes I hate it. But I just have to trust that God has them under control. Today I killed a good half hour editing pictures that I took of them. (I've also been missing photography lately like NOBODY'S business...so this is as close as I can get for a while.) Thought I'd share some of them.

"Let the children come to me, and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of God." Luke 18:16

"He will defend the afflicted among the people and save the children of the needy; he will crush the oppressors." Psalm 72:4

"See that you do not despise one of these little ones. For I tell you that in heaven their angels always see the face of my Father who is in heaven." Matthew 18:10

"For he will deliver the needy who cry out; the afflicted who have no one to help. He will take pity on the weak & the needy & save the needy from death. He will rescue them from oppression & violence, for precious is their blood in his sight." Psalm 72:12-14

"Mahal Kita" - "I love you" in Tagalog